I come humbly before you this morning. My heart is heavy and I feel so unneeded. I know my job as a mom is changing. I know my job as a mom will never be the same. I know it is not just my job any more. It is Your job as always, but even more so now then ever. But knowing all this does not make this season easier
Knowing in my head to allow my adult children the space to grow and knowing it in my heart not to cling are two different very things. Neither one are easy. Learning to accept this is such a struggle. A struggle I know I cannot master on my own.
Letting go of my adult children and allowing them to choice is harder then it sounds or looks. Saying to myself, I am going to let them fail or make their own choices this time doesn't come easy. Watching them stumble in their lives, making similar if not the same mistakes I did is painstaking. Telling myself each day I am not going to step in, I am not going to say something, I am going to just watch them walk through this season knowing I am here if they need me is very difficult. I want to save them. I want to keep them from harm. Truly, God I am struggling with my faith in You with my kids.
God help me. Give me the courage to let my adult children go. Show me how I can give them the space they need to make their pathway with You. Grant me the faith to know through every trial and temptation they face You are with them. Remind me that my adult children are only a gift from You. They are truly Yours and Yours alone. I cannot walk this older parent journey without you. Help me to know down to the depths of my understanding that You will not leave us nor forsake. Give me the courage to know, by letting my children go gives them the room they need to grow.
In Jesus name