I understand the feeling of not being able to walk into a room because you are a afraid. Have you ever had that feeling? You know the feeling where your heart is in your throat and the only thought that is running throw your mind is, are they going to talk to me? You are standing in the middle of a room full of people and the only thing that is flowing throw your heart and the depths of your soul is, nobody is going to notice me.... nobody is going to talk to me. This is not what God intended for us.
I understand this life, ladies. If you are honest with yourselves, like I had to be, we have all been there. I have been there. I have stood outside a door praying God would give me the strength just to walk through it and say something. I have stood in a line at a potluck praying for God to open up an opportunity to sit at a table, be talked to and not be alone.
I remember when I had the chance to be a counselor at camp with my daughter. As a counselor you go through the line first, and you get a table before the others. For me that was a big obstacle, the biggest obstacle in my life. This meant I had to sit at a table all by myself and wait for little teeny boppers to come and sit with me. Even though I am adult and I know I am grounded in Christ, I was afraid no one would sit at my table.
The reality is we want to express ourselves and be excepted. We want to talk to others, to friends. We want to sit at a table over coffee or a meal and express ourselves. And the funny thing is, the reason we want to be with others so much is becasue God has created us that way. We are wired to fellowship with others, to express ourselves.
It says in His word we are to meet with others, to fellowship, and to break bread. Hebrews 10:24-25 And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. I understand it is hard. I have struggled and continue to struggle with meeting with friends. I don't think it is suppose to be easy. I think we are suppose to struggle with this just bit, because through our struggle we find that our first fellowship is with Christ. Through Him we are able to fellowship with others.
Take heart my dear friends, it will get easier. Remember God's promises, He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will give you the strength to face this challenge. Just go to Him first.
Just the other night I had a chance to go and enjoy that fellowship, that expressing of yourself. I got to go a Chick-flick and Chocolate night with a great group of ladies from my church. It was fun! It was a blast! Now mind you there was a part of me that wanted to stay home and spend the evening with my kids. Crazy?!
I wanted to stay home in the comforts of my home because it was safe. There was a part of me that did not want to expose myself to the chance that no one would talk to me, that I might not be excepted. The chance I might be rejected, or ignored. But this is not what God wants. This is NOT the truth of God's word.
God wants us to step out in faith. He wants us to step out with others, to fellowship, to express ourselves in a way that honors Him. So.....my friends how are going to step out in faith today and express yourself?